“You, and the other people in that class, picked me up. You all told me how caring and funny and kind and intelligent I was. You all gave me hope for myself and for my life.”
Have you ever felt as if there’s no way out?
Miles away from friends and family and in a toxic relationship, depression was overcoming Caitlin. Five years after taking Ignite the Spark, she reached out to heartspark with this note.
It’s been years, and you most likely don’t remember me. But your class very well may have saved my life. So, thank you.
Moving to Portland to finish my degree – hundreds of miles from my home and my family, a year after my brother-in-law passed away – was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. Although I spent a year living with and taking care of my sister and her three kids, after her husband’s passing, I had a tremendous amount of guilt leaving them in Ashland and moving to Portland.
When I found heartspark, I was in one of the lowest points of my life. I was in a highly abusive relationship with a man who was emotionally, verbally, physically and sexually abusing me – and quite frankly, I felt like my only way out was ending my life. I’ve suffered from depression my entire life and have been treated for it since I was eleven, but this – this feeling I couldn’t live with and I didn’t know how to, or even think that I could, leave. I was so low, so alone and scared for my life.
Then I took Ignite the Spark. You, and the other people in that class, picked me up. You all told me how caring and funny and kind and intelligent I was. You all gave me hope for myself and for my life.
I can’t say that my depression has left me, it still sits closely by on every occasion I’m faced with – but that belief in myself – that never left me either. I can do life, and I can do it with happiness and grace. I was reminded of the power of connectedness and personal strength in your course. And I think it may have saved my life.
I’m down in Southern Oregon these days working as a Human Resource Specialist for our great state. I may not be able to make it to a heartspark Connections, but I send all my love!
Thank you. From the bottom of my heart, I thank you.